I tried and I failed.

So, last week I tried out for my school's Mock Trial team. It is honestly the only thing I knew I really wanted to do before even coming to law school.

Well, if you haven't figured it out yet by the title of this post, I was not successful.

Now, I'm gonna go on a long rant about why the whole process is unfair and flawed. If you like reading whiny posts, then you've come to the right place!

#1. There were almost 100 people trying out. They take 20 people tops. Maybe 15-18 1L students (first year, like me) and 2-5 2L students (second year, mostly this is to give an opportunity to students who transfer in).

#2. None of the 1Ls take any classes that have anything to do with trials -- which means everything we know is from watching Law & Order and Legally Blonde. Except

#3. The huge chunk of 1Ls who did Mock Trial in undergrad, took Mock Trial classes in the past and/or whose parents are attorneys (including one girl whose father was actually one of the judges)

#4. You try out over 3 days. The first day is an opening statement, second day is cross examination, third day is closing. They do the cut after the second day. Why not do it after the first day for those of us who aren't going to make it to save us from the many hours of work they we devote to it when free time is already lacking so much in law school

#5. I tried out because I REALLY really want to do Trial Work. Okay, so you picked the people who are already the best to make them even better, but what about the people who really want to learn and get better? Why can't it be like a sports team and you just have a "bench" -- you don't have to send me to competitions around the country, but you could let people who really want to learn to come participate.

So yeah, I'm bitter.But also, sad.

I stepped outside my comfort zone just like Pinterest told me to, but I realized that Pinterest doesn't tell you what happens after you step out of your comfort zone. We all just assume it'll be great, but that is not always the case. Then I looked up "failure" on pinterest so I could find snarky quotes, but unfortunately all I did was find quotes that made me feel better. Jerky pinterest.

 

 I'm not usually the biggest fan of MM quotes, because I don't necessarily believe a Playboy model who had an affair with the President is the #1 lady I should be taking advice from, butttttt, this one really spoke to me because that's my problem. I fail once and then I get really down on myself, think I'm not good enough and I don't want to try again. Soooo, gonna try to fix that.

Tell me a story about a time you failed but then in the end everything turned out okay, to cheer me up? Please? (I mean, I know how everyone who lives in BlogLand is living the perfect life, but make an exception for moi?).

Happy Monday!

(& it is happy for me b/c my only class is cancelled! :D)