Hullo! 

So crazy that I feel like I have so much time this week. It's because one of my profs is in Greece at some convention so it's like I only have four classes this week! yay!

I love my new blog design! I know, I know I said I was going to do it myself but then...law school. Kalyn from Geez, Louise Design (& blog!) did it and she was great, and really patient when I was being really nitpicky about stuff. And super-inexpensive! Check her out if you are looking to spruce things up!

Yesterday I went to my first therapy session, ever. Why? Well, back in January I was having what I was convinced were night panic attacks (and my attacks I mean attack) and since I had already gone to all the regular doc offices and everything was OK, I figured it was time to check my brain out.
This is the issue with Dr.'s offices that it is now MARCH and I'm meeting with my therapist for the first time. 

Honestly, I feel kind of guilty about it, like, there's nothing wrong with me, I shouldn't even be here wasting your time. I feel really well-adjusted, I have many friends, I get plenty of sleep, I am a good student and I have goals for myself. 

BUT, I sometimes suffer from intense anxiety -- esp. regarding flying (wine usually helps) or constantly assuming people have died (morbid, eh?). So, she asked me what I wanted to get out of therapy and I hope that I can get over those two anxieties. 

It was really weird to just talk about myself for an hour and a half! I really liked my therapist, I think she was my age, and she went to Columbia so we have that in common .. like, I wanted to ask her about herself too... because it felt like I was talking to a friend (? is that cheesy? lol) but then I was like, I don't think you're supposed to ask your therapist questions about themselves... sooo, I refrained. 

Speaking of therapy, can we take a moment to discuss how your facebook status is NOT your therapist? I mean, part of me sits back and is like, ohhh my, what's going on here, but long story short - A "friend" posted 10 quote-pictures about cheating, tagged her husband in it, and then said something about how can someone who you trusted so much treat you this way. She has continued to post things along that line in the following days. I mean, she hasn't come out and said, "He cheated on me!" But it's obvious. 

Why do people do that? 

Ok, I get why people do it. You want to embarrass him and hurt him because he embarrassed and hurt you. But, here's the thing: you just put it out for all of facebook to see. So what happens if you decide you want to work things out? This is what cracks me up because then come the inevitable statuses about how it's "noone's business" what's going on in your life. But you made it everyone's business when you put it up for the world to see. 

So yeah, I don't get it. 

One time a friend posted that she had just walked in on her boyfriend of five years having sex with a waitress he brought home from Wing House (another Hooters-like chain if you've never heard of it). Everyone went crazy commenting on this, blah blah blah, and then she deleted facebook for awhile, then came back and they're still together and everything is fine. Just, BIZARRE!

Ok, well, there's a long post about that. Have you ever gone to therapy?  Did it help you?

I tried and I failed.

So, last week I tried out for my school's Mock Trial team. It is honestly the only thing I knew I really wanted to do before even coming to law school.

Well, if you haven't figured it out yet by the title of this post, I was not successful.

Now, I'm gonna go on a long rant about why the whole process is unfair and flawed. If you like reading whiny posts, then you've come to the right place!

#1. There were almost 100 people trying out. They take 20 people tops. Maybe 15-18 1L students (first year, like me) and 2-5 2L students (second year, mostly this is to give an opportunity to students who transfer in).

#2. None of the 1Ls take any classes that have anything to do with trials -- which means everything we know is from watching Law & Order and Legally Blonde. Except

#3. The huge chunk of 1Ls who did Mock Trial in undergrad, took Mock Trial classes in the past and/or whose parents are attorneys (including one girl whose father was actually one of the judges)

#4. You try out over 3 days. The first day is an opening statement, second day is cross examination, third day is closing. They do the cut after the second day. Why not do it after the first day for those of us who aren't going to make it to save us from the many hours of work they we devote to it when free time is already lacking so much in law school

#5. I tried out because I REALLY really want to do Trial Work. Okay, so you picked the people who are already the best to make them even better, but what about the people who really want to learn and get better? Why can't it be like a sports team and you just have a "bench" -- you don't have to send me to competitions around the country, but you could let people who really want to learn to come participate.

So yeah, I'm bitter.But also, sad.

I stepped outside my comfort zone just like Pinterest told me to, but I realized that Pinterest doesn't tell you what happens after you step out of your comfort zone. We all just assume it'll be great, but that is not always the case. Then I looked up "failure" on pinterest so I could find snarky quotes, but unfortunately all I did was find quotes that made me feel better. Jerky pinterest.

 

 I'm not usually the biggest fan of MM quotes, because I don't necessarily believe a Playboy model who had an affair with the President is the #1 lady I should be taking advice from, butttttt, this one really spoke to me because that's my problem. I fail once and then I get really down on myself, think I'm not good enough and I don't want to try again. Soooo, gonna try to fix that.

Tell me a story about a time you failed but then in the end everything turned out okay, to cheer me up? Please? (I mean, I know how everyone who lives in BlogLand is living the perfect life, but make an exception for moi?).

Happy Monday!

(& it is happy for me b/c my only class is cancelled! :D)

Saturday Stadium Workout

Ughhhhh

What's worse than a Sunday hangover?

I'm not much of a drinker, but yesterday I was out drinking from about noon (brunch) until 10:30pm. I mean, I love day drinking as much as the next person, but that's so I can get home by 7 and be in bed by 8. Amiright?

But, before all that, I went with Amanda & Sophie to the stadium to do a "stadium workout." I didn't really know what to expect, but as a former Lost addict I assumed it meant we would run (and I would walk) up and down all the sections of the stadium.

What I didn't realize was that there were these sick things you could download from the internet called "stadium workouts" and there are all sorts of torture components .. not JUST the up and down in the stadium! 

What I should also mention is that Amanda and Sophie are both SUPER in shape and yes, I did just run a half marathon last weekend, but (and I hate to say it) running isn't really that hard of a workout once you get to the point where you can run a long distance. Anyways, so they are both super in shape which meant I had like two personal trainers but which also meant I couldn't slack! I couldn't find the sensor for my HR monitor, but Amanda burned 600+ calories so I probably burned at least 1000. 

So, this workout consisted of running, lunging, planking, push upping, mountain climbing, stadium running, tricep dipping, wall sitting, squatting and more running. Wow, even just typing that out makes my legs ache. And yes, today my legs feel like someone beat them with a baseball bat yesterday. Isn't that a great feeling?? 

So, I feel confident saying I've got this whole working out thing down. I've been working out consistently since Mid-January...now for the hard part: EATING RIGHT. 

However many times I've done it, I just always slip back down. To be honest, I don't even think I eat that unhealthily ... I've been the same weight for about three years (give or take 5 pounds) ... so all I have to do is lose 30 pounds, and then I can eat however I eat now and maintain that weight. Right?

So, uhh, give me some tips on how to stay full while eating delicious food and still being healthy. K? thanks!