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March 4, 2014

Hullo! 

So crazy that I feel like I have so much time this week. It's because one of my profs is in Greece at some convention so it's like I only have four classes this week! yay!
I love my new blog design! I know, I know I said I was going to do it myself but then...law school. Kalyn from Geez, Louise Design (& blog!) did it and she was great, and really patient when I was being really nitpicky about stuff. And super-inexpensive! Check her out if you are looking to spruce things up!

Yesterday I went to my first therapy session, ever. Why? Well, back in January I was having what I was convinced were night panic attacks (and my attacks I mean attack) and since I had already gone to all the regular doc offices and everything was OK, I figured it was time to check my brain out.
This is the issue with Dr.'s offices that it is now MARCH and I'm meeting with my therapist for the first time. 

Honestly, I feel kind of guilty about it, like, there's nothing wrong with me, I shouldn't even be here wasting your time. I feel really well-adjusted, I have many friends, I get plenty of sleep, I am a good student and I have goals for myself. 

BUT, I sometimes suffer from intense anxiety -- esp. regarding flying (wine usually helps) or constantly assuming people have died (morbid, eh?). So, she asked me what I wanted to get out of therapy and I hope that I can get over those two anxieties. 

It was really weird to just talk about myself for an hour and a half! I really liked my therapist, I think she was my age, and she went to Columbia so we have that in common .. like, I wanted to ask her about herself too... because it felt like I was talking to a friend (? is that cheesy? lol) but then I was like, I don't think you're supposed to ask your therapist questions about themselves... sooo, I refrained. 
Speaking of therapy, can we take a moment to discuss how your facebook status is NOT your therapist? I mean, part of me sits back and is like, ohhh my, what's going on here, but long story short - A "friend" posted 10 quote-pictures about cheating, tagged her husband in it, and then said something about how can someone who you trusted so much treat you this way. She has continued to post things along that line in the following days. I mean, she hasn't come out and said, "He cheated on me!" But it's obvious. 
Why do people do that? 
Ok, I get why people do it. You want to embarrass him and hurt him because he embarrassed and hurt you. But, here's the thing: you just put it out for all of facebook to see. So what happens if you decide you want to work things out? This is what cracks me up because then come the inevitable statuses about how it's "noone's business" what's going on in your life. But you made it everyone's business when you put it up for the world to see. 
So yeah, I don't get it. 
One time a friend posted that she had just walked in on her boyfriend of five years having sex with a waitress he brought home from Wing House (another Hooters-like chain if you've never heard of it). Everyone went crazy commenting on this, blah blah blah, and then she deleted facebook for awhile, then came back and they're still together and everything is fine. Just, BIZARRE!
Ok, well, there's a long post about that. Have you ever gone to therapy?  Did it help you?
Glossy Blonde

3 comments :

  1. There's nothing wrong with going to therapy, I have anxiety myself. It sucks, so anything that you can do to alleviate is awesome. Hoping it works for you.

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  2. I suffer from INTENSE anxiety, pretty much 24/7. Exercise has done wonders for me but I can honestly tell you that therapy has done so much for me, I don't know that I'll ever stop going. I love being able to sit and vent and get everything out and then have someone help me figure out what's going on inside my head. I've found that having that external perspective makes it much easier for me to recognize what's really going on; that it's not a project I'm working on that has me upset, it's actually the way I got the directions or something. Just wanted to share my experience :)

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  3. My mother is my therapist....the poor thing she gets the brunt end of a lot of crap from me....if I didn't have her to talk to I would definitely need someone else to :-)

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